Insanity, Pity, Reality and Fear
Feb. 7th, 2005 03:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sbyteMy stalker had been rather quiet since the Sherriff paid a visit to serve a criminal trespass warning. He was for some reason furious with my neighbors, but I was ignored. Today he fired of another barrage of e-mails about me. This time he included exact dates of times when "we" did something together or that I said or did something loving to/for/about him.
This time one of the e-mails was sent to my parents! He invited them to his home to talk about his love. Said it is of the mind, soul and soon body!
There are many who feel sorry for him. They say that insanity must be excused. He doesn't know any better. He has said publicly that he will get out of a DWI by using his mental condition. In another e-mail he has assured everyone that he has been to jail and it is not a threat. He will just be released because he doesn't have the mental capacity to tell right from wrong.
I am scared. I have considered moving, but am afraid that he could track me unless I leave the state and/or change my name. That is a possibility. A man volunteered to call him for me, but my immediate reaction was to beg him not to. I am afraid that he will be shot if he does. Even more terrifying is the thought of my father actually going to the home of an insane man intent on protecting his daughter. He is old with a heart condition. It would kill him.
I am mad. I am scared. I am trying to decide which breed of large dog to buy. I was loaned a gun, but Thursday am going to buy one. Right now my life is not my own. I live in fear for myself and those I care about.
I post here because I can not talk to anyone right now. It is too emotional. Then I think of those who feel so very sorry for him. They think him harmless. They can't know what it is to be stalked by insanity.
This time one of the e-mails was sent to my parents! He invited them to his home to talk about his love. Said it is of the mind, soul and soon body!
There are many who feel sorry for him. They say that insanity must be excused. He doesn't know any better. He has said publicly that he will get out of a DWI by using his mental condition. In another e-mail he has assured everyone that he has been to jail and it is not a threat. He will just be released because he doesn't have the mental capacity to tell right from wrong.
I am scared. I have considered moving, but am afraid that he could track me unless I leave the state and/or change my name. That is a possibility. A man volunteered to call him for me, but my immediate reaction was to beg him not to. I am afraid that he will be shot if he does. Even more terrifying is the thought of my father actually going to the home of an insane man intent on protecting his daughter. He is old with a heart condition. It would kill him.
I am mad. I am scared. I am trying to decide which breed of large dog to buy. I was loaned a gun, but Thursday am going to buy one. Right now my life is not my own. I live in fear for myself and those I care about.
I post here because I can not talk to anyone right now. It is too emotional. Then I think of those who feel so very sorry for him. They think him harmless. They can't know what it is to be stalked by insanity.
